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Ask.   Submit   Twenty something girl stuck between middle earth & space. Drinker of tea, teller of jokes, & talker of shit. This is me, take it or leave it.

    Anonymous asked: why do you care if kira is raising her baby or her mom is? btw its kira who is raising him


    Like I said, I was curious. Let me guess this is Kira. Thanks for the message! 

    — 5 hours ago
    #dumb cunt  #mumblrs  #pregblr  #Anonymous 
    #monsoon #scottsdale #arizona #microburst #weather #lightning #instadaily

    #monsoon #scottsdale #arizona #microburst #weather #lightning #instadaily

    — 3 days ago with 7 notes
    #arizona  #scottsdale  #lightning  #weather  #microburst  #monsoon  #instadaily 
    It’s like #grapesoda without the fizz #Snapple

    It’s like #grapesoda without the fizz #Snapple

    — 5 days ago with 1 note
    #snapple  #grapesoda 
    #weather #arizona #monsoon #instadaily

    #weather #arizona #monsoon #instadaily

    — 1 week ago with 2 notes
    #monsoon  #instadaily  #weather  #arizona 

Little by little we all get to where we wanna be.


    Little by little we all get to where we wanna be.

    — 1 week ago with 2 notes

    Called about my hours. They’ve been cut to eight this week. Fuckers.

    I’ve been busting my ass and because I didn’t answer my phone on my days off I  get cut hours.

    School is starting in a month, and as for residency it takes six to eight weeks to process and it looks like I’ll be going back part time again.

    This is bullshit, I should have stayed in Arizona and finished my education there, seriously.

    The bookstore is only part time, and I may do two weeks work there, and one indefinitely for rush week. As for part time or full time work, apparently, it doesn’t exist.

    I’m so over this bullshit job I work at. I’m tired of guessing what my check will be like, how many hours etc. I’ve been working my ass off and I only get eight hours a week. I’ll be looking for other job  opportunities. It just isn’t worth it anymore.

    My niece is coming into town in a week and a half, and I’ll be accompanying her to Chipenddales. I’m doing this for her, and to spend time with her. To be honest, I’ve never been a fan of it, and I know it’s different that I’m married. It’s disgusting if you ask me.

    Next month my mom and brother are coming down to visit. I’m kind of excited, but to be honest - - -  it’s just too much to handle. I love her not because I have to but because she’s my mother. What a weird and strained relationship we have.

    I wish things were better for me to be honest. I”m still struggling to be happy and to find a job that makes me excited to be there, but in all honesty, I’m completely thrown and lost.

    Oh, well.

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    Anonymous asked: When was the last time you cried, and why?


    Currently, because I miss my dad so much.

    — 1 week ago with 1 note
    #death  #dying  #grief  #you asked  #Anonymous 
    tinyhumanmarina asked: Ignore the anon... He/she's not worth your time :)


    Thank you, I appreciate that. Ugh, so I’m seeing your icon and have Calzona feels so bad. 

    — 1 week ago
    #tinyhumanmarina  #you asked  #anonymous 
    Anonymous asked: What's the meaning behind your URL?


    Nothing really. I just came up with it a decade ago when I was on Xanga. I tried to be hardcore; but in the process, I made the best friends a girl could ask for.

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    #screen name  #url  #xanga  #you asked  #Anonymous 
    Anonymous asked: What are your life goals?


    To find something in my life that makes me so incredibly happy that I don’t ever want to go to sleep.

    — 1 week ago with 1 note
    #life goals  #Anonymous  #You asked 

    I have an interview today for a bookstore. I’m excited, and I know I’ll get it. I’ve worked with them before. I know If and when I get this, I’ll be working with a bunch of Mexicans chatty ass teenagers and I’ll just want to kill myself. 

    If I work graveyards it’s not so bad to be honest. I work with L and L and they are bearable. I don’t have bitches telling me I’m too slow, you need to do this this and this. I don’t feel like I am five and getting bossed around. I’d rather do graveyards than anything, to be honest. Work called me in, and I ignored it. I’m not working today for six to eight hours, coming home doing laundry, catching a cat nap, getting ready and heading to an interview. That’s seriously fucking insane. 

    What happens when you love somebody with all your heart and soul, where does the love go?

    — 1 week ago with 2 notes
    #personal  #insomnia 

    People can forgive toxic parents, but they should do it at the conclusion—not at the beginning—of their emotional housecleaning. People need to get angry about what happened to them. They need to grieve over the fact that they never had the parental love they yearned for. They need to stop diminishing or discounting the damage that was done to them. Too often, “forgive and forget” means “pretend it didn’t happen.”

    I also believe that forgiveness is appropriate only when parents do something to earn it. Toxic parents, especially the more abusive ones, need to acknowledge what happened, take responsibility, and show a willingness to make amends. If you unilaterally absolve parents who continue to treat you badly, who deny much of your reality and feelings, and who continue to project blame onto you, you may seriously impede the emotional work you need to do. If one or both parents are dead, you can still heal the damage, by forgiving yourself and releasing much of the hold that they had over your emotional well-being.

    At this point, you may be wondering, understandably, if you will remain bitter and angry for the rest of your life if you don’t forgive your parents. In fact, quite the opposite is true. What I have seen over the years is that emotional and mental peace comes as a result of releasing yourself from your toxic parents’ control, without necessarily having to forgive them. And that release can come only after you’ve worked through your intense feelings of outrage and grief and after you’ve put the responsibility on their shoulders, where it belongs.

    Susan Forward, Toxic Parents, ch 9 (via fromonesurvivortoanother)

    (via naturalmomma)

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    Penguin falls down resulting in best sound ever [x]

    oh my god


    they all gasped like OHHH


    (via magnificently-despondent)

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